random thoughts and situations on a friday afternoon....

so today was a good day.. a very good day at school: workouts went well, classes even better though my bob was absent today, a victim of the flu that seems to be going around. odd, that the flu is even an issue here lately as the temp has been in the 80's for a while though, of course, the temp has nothing to do with the flu bug.
so, it was a minor bummer not to see bob's bright face and crooked smile today: a face and smile that is always full of wonder,positivity, hope and most importantly...kindness and a thorough understanding of what makes us all tick.

the charges ("mayhem," remember?) against carlos and greg have been dropped and the noise coming from carlos' bedroom is definitely not from a woman's throat but from a mans: i.e. one gregory. this is cool for both of them but as we all know it is a slippery slope trying to sustain a relationship with a bi-sexual. personally I would always be carrying around the thought that carlos would be looking around for a replacement, which is bad enough...but a replacement of the female gender. but thank god, carlos is not my problem in that way though as friends he is a problem in quite a few other ways.

american idol: though at first i hated this daughtry wannabee, david cook after this weeks andrew lloyd webber-fest, his performance of "music in the night" was unbelievably stellar in every way: WOW! the other david as in david archuleta was good but not as good as his counterpart, david cook. just for the record, i also loved dreadlocked, jason's interpretation of "memories" : albeit a weird choice for a dude but jason showed an emotional depth that very few of the other contestants could match. all these three gave much more than surface readings of their songs: songs that were written and first performed before these dudes were born.

tonight: no partying for this guy as i have a saturday, all day seminar with bob on my specialty: sports psych. hopefully bob shows up. as i am typing this i am about one millimeter/one second away from getting up and making him a sterling chicken soup with roasted chicken breasts and veggies but if i went over to his house with a pot of this and there were a woman there tending to his aches and pains i would probably kill myself. anyway: it's bill maher on hbo for me tonight, a couple of tokes and bed...now tomorrow is another story.

facebook: anyone else think that it is ridiculously complicated?

love has been on my mind of late or more to the point a lack of love in my life from a special someone that is. i have and enjoy love from friends and from my uncle michael there is no doubt but to put it bluntly, i need a boyfriend even if it doesn't work out ya know: someone to fuck, someone with whom to hold hands at the movies, someone who asks me to iron his shirt in the morning (a skill i learned from my mother who was an expert at it), someone i can depend on and he on me. i don't think i am asking for a lot nor am i asking for something for an extended period of time. i just need it for the now.
peace,
tyler
music:
aretha: say a little prayer, ain't no way...lorraine ellison: stay with me baby, madama butterfly (freni,pavarotti), erykah badu: tyrone, seal, keane, hot chips, kenna...

"the people who are the hardest to love usually need it the most"

Love has no rules. It happens when you least expect it, often when you don't want it, many times when you can't handle it. It often times scares you, surprises you, shakes you down to your very core.
When love hits you for the very first time, you question your sanity as your entire world feels and looks different. What is it, you ask yourself? Why do I turn to jelly when I think of Him? When I wake up in the morning why is my first thought of Him?
Just as often you think: what will I do when he is gone, when I can no longer smell his particular aroma next to me because he is no longer there?
No one is easy to love. We all come from different places emotionally and making the connection is often fraught with difficulties, misunderstandings and failures of comprehension and communication. We all speak a different emotional language as different from one another as if we were from different planets.
How do we manage somehow to bridge these gaping chasms, then? How do we manage to fall in/ resign ourselves to/let down our guards...to open ourselves up to love?

random thoughts on a friday night before i go out to the only semi-gay bar in sb...

so here i am, dressed in a pair of polo madras shorts circa 1975 that my uncle gave me, a black lacoste shirt with the collar NOT lifted and a pair of black lucchese western boots waiting for carlos and greg to get ready. now remember carlos and greg are currently on bail for trying to kill each other a week ago and "causing a general (as opposed to a specific...whatever both of those terms mean in this context)state of mayhem" at q's nightclub and pool hall: as the citation reads.
carlos ex/current gf has flown the coop supposedly to eureka california the nothern most place in california and still be in california.she is a fugitive as in bonnie w/o clyde.

bob-0-licious: we had our weekly mentor/student conference this week but instead of lunch we had dinner (as in we ate in a restaurant after 5 pm in the evening...a restaurant that caters to mostly adults with a certain level of sophistication and an upscale menu with a wine list and a sommelier)and a bottle (or 2 of wine) and neither of us were scooped up by God and flung into hell. though i didn't question the invitation or more to the point the change in the time and locale of the invitation but i'm thinking that it has everything to do with talbot my first grade teach and bob's thinking that talbot and i may have had sex...which we didn't and won't. unfortunately neither will bob and i at least until i get my phd or when i slip bob a mickey.

the big plan this summer is to once again teach and attend classes at nyc's columbia uni for approx. 3 months beginning in june. all of you dudes that i met last summer (and got along with...the others please don't)please get in touch.

american idol: i love this show and this season my just be the best one ever. i just wish that dread locked boy (jason) and daughtry-clone (something-cook) should be booted asap but somehow they are still hanging on. i think that 16 year old david is a doll and is almost great singer. on top of all of this, mariah carey's appearance this week was too funny/real/mariah-ish to be believed.

speaking of tv programs: am i the only one who watches the brit series, "coupling" on bbc america? i know it is several years old but all of the characters are so well written and acted that it is pretty well neigh too good to resist. any series that does a program solely based on sausages and bmw's is ok in my book.

chocolate: trader joe's has THE best chocolate bars (and i mean big ass one pound bars) imported from belgium that are unbelievably luscious as well as incredibly delicious. $2.99??????? how do they make money on this stuff?

ok: carlos and greg have finished fucking and are now ready to leave for q's. carlos is wearing 501's, a black pascucci's tee (a local sb restaurant)and a pair of beat up work boots: untied and w/o socks. greg is wearing "those" shorts: you know the kind in army drag material with pockets at the knees, a tight white cashmere sweater and a pair of ecco lace up demi boots. so it is time to go...more later.
peace,
tyler
music today: elliott yamin's cd: love this guy...a former american idol reject, mary j, mariah carey, madonna's new one, mylene farmer, zazie, chimene, caetano veloso, kaskade....

i'm in lust with eric case....

as you all may have noticed, everytime you open your blogspot dashboard the angelic, toothsome , sexy face of one eric case, soon to leave blogger.com, appears: like an internet michael the arch angel, ready to steal your heart and inflame your loins.

i realize that i write quite a few blogs on the nature of lust, love and sexy men...but so be it. unfortunately i can't see an end of this in sight: i'm doomed to a life of loving and lusting after men i think are hot. and mr. eric case is one and my newest.

i know nothing of eric ( i can call him by his given name now in that i have now declared myself to you and to him if he is reading...which i doubt) except that he lives in san francisco (ahem, ahem) which doesn't mean that he is automatically gay or that he is gay at all. but gay or not...what brought me to eric's charms are his pearly whites and the way he exposes them in his big guy, i like everyone and everyone likes me, grin as exemplified in the photo above.

eric is the type of guy who would play catch with your little brother, knit with your mother, talk baseball with your father and do shots of anejo tequila with you.

reading the story surrounding the photo above you realize that eric likes to eat greasy hamburgers, drink beer and wear fashionable but ugly sunglasses.

i'm sure my fascination with eric will fade as quickly as it came to me especially when the police come and arrest me for stalking him. (alas, i wish i had time to stalk anyone except bob but at least with bob, i can actually converse, have coffee and buy him gifts)

eric: call me.

peace,

tyler

(100's of you have asked {ok, only one} about the carlos, greg debacle: everything is status quo: by that i mean the mayhem charges still stand, carlos and compnay are scared shitless and carlos and greg are back in school. carlos' gf is looking into entering a convent.)

music today: the B52's, mary j., janet, mariah (yes, i know), madonna's new one (yes, i know2), sting, the police, zazie, mylene farmer...

running man returns

this vid is really cool: i've always loved the m.c. hammer fueled dance...the running man.

very laid back sunday: lots of study time, made some major bucks yesterday cheffing at a breakfast catering thing and got my cock sucked by one of the party attendees. thank god he took great care in choking my chicken: cock sucking is becoming a lost art but rob took his time, enjoyed his work and on top of that he swallowed my seed so that there was minimum cleanup. thanks rob, you are a true artist!

peace,tyler

listened to tons of stuff today while hitting the books, though all of it was on the quiet-storm variety: david sylvain, smokey, seal, joni mitchell (her blue period), rachmaninov...

btw: though not a rabid madonna fan, i think i was the only gay man in all of so/cal that did not see here last year, i'm kinda liking her new song with timbaland and timberlake...

huh?

from the los angeles times today:
Priscilla Presley
According to People magazine, the "Dancing with the Stars" contestant was treated by an unlicensed surgeon and is planning to undergo more surgery to correct it.

why would one of he richest women in hollywood have work done by an "unlicensed surgeon?"
t.
(carlos, greg and carlos' gf were arrested last night for, what the sb police are calling....mayhem) a good word i think to describe what went on last night at q's....

miscellany

carlos and greg are going on their first offical gay date tonight. as i'm sure you remember, carlos was/is straight with a girlfriend who up to last week only fucked women. then greg came into his life and now he is gay.
psychologically speaking this is impossible i tell carlos
me: carlos, this is impossible
carlos: why? why can't a person change his mind about his sexuality when he finally meets THAT special person who flips him?
me: it makes more sense to me if you told me that you thought that the world was flat...you must have had homo feeling prior to meeting greg....
carlos: no i didn't. greg changed my mind about my sexuality by way of his imposing charm and charisma (btw readers i am not making this up, carlos actually said this)
me: carlos, greg is neither charming nor charismatic though he does have a certain geeky attraction. plus he does have nice toes...i'll give you that....
carlos: when have you seen his toes?
me: what diff does that make? btw: what do you intend to tell your gf...who i noticed stayed over last night and unless you were strangling her, seemed to be enjoying you last night....
carlos: i will tell her tonight...
me: tell her exactly what? she's going to be at q's tonight also?
carlos: tell her that i am bi and that greg is the other half of the equation....
me: ok: let's think about this: first of all we know that greg can whip your ass and has done so very recently, right? and from the looks of your gf and the fact that she is built like a ukranian water polo player...she also looks like a formidble foe...the question is: who's ass is she going to whomp on first, yours or gregs? or: will she and greg turn on you......
carlos: i guess this is going to be one of THOSE nights, huh, bro?
me: hmmmm....yes mah brotha...we will probably never be allowed back in q's after tonight.....

bob-o-licious has finally commented on mr talbot. you remember, mr talbot with whom i shared a french kiss on upper state street in front of ihop: the man who was my first grade teacher?
anyway: bob asked me if , after he left, did talbot and i go off and have sex. for once, i didn't blush, high tail it out of there nor act a fool: i merely smiled and slowly walked out of bob's office.

the weather here in sb has been super: mid 80's and the beach has been calling me while i remain in my room studying, studying, studying. but this weekend i have a gig up in pismo beach with a catering company to cook for a family reunion. and said reunion is on the beach at pismo: we can wear what we like and what i like is swim togs, a tee shirt and a pair of flips. hopefully, since i am manning the bbq, i will not set my shirt on fire as i did the last time i worked this gig a few months ago.
i like doing these gigs because the money is great and i don't ask the uncs (uncle michael) for money to live on since he does so much for me already. in fact i'm going to buy him a "bra" for his new porsche because he freaks every time a rock off the road nicks his front end. i always like to do things for the uncs though, if it involves cash, i normally don't have the opportunity.

YAZ featuring the enduring legend alison moyet is coming to los angeles and i will definitely check this big event out as Yaz has not been to la in 25 years or so the ads say. check out yaz on itunes: situation, don't go are two of their greatest songs particularly the remixes.

john adams (our 2nd president for those of you who don't know) is a very great tv mini series currently playing on HBO. adams is probably smiling from heaven as this series puts a face, personality and major intellect on the almost secret presidency and political career of this man. adams was definitely worried about how he would be remembered as he was overshadowed in his time and subsequently by the monumental careers and personas of george washington, ben franklin and thomas jefferson.
one of the things that i really like about this series (directed by tom hooper who also directed helen mirren's prime suspect) is that all of these men, who in our minds are considered almost saints; men who conceived, fought for and won what we now call the USA,are treated as living breathing human beings: warts and all. check it out.
john quincy adams (john's son and the us's 3rd president) to his father: did you care one whit about your children and your wife while you were in europe begging the french and the dutch for money to continue the revolution? did you ever wonder if we were ok and that maybe we needed our father? riveting stuff.

i'm off now to the gun store to buy a bullet proof vest for tonight's st valintine's massacre starring carlos, greg and carlos' gf.
stay tuned.
peace,
tyler
today's music: Yaz, alison moyet, laura nyro, kenna, heavenly, seal, mary j., heart, chopin etudes, eric satie....